“One ought to hold on to one’s heart; for if one lets it go, one soon loses control of the head too.” Nietzsche 1883 It feels longer than four years […]
” All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we […]
Reviewing my journals from eight years ago I was surprised at how much was going at that time. I was desperately trying to maintain links with my pre-heroin life, and […]
Notes from Journals July 2011 The decomposed body of a homeless guy was discovered at a derelict church in East the Water. The newspaper made a point of saying a […]
The first time I tried heroin was not an accident, I had been searching for a solution for some time. I was looking for something to cushion my reality, to […]
“Write down the thoughts of the moment. Those that come unsought for are commonly the most valuable” Francis Bacon When I first sat down to write this post I tried […]
This year you are allowed to feel whatever you feel, and I did. June 11th will always be significant, as significant as any birth or death. It’ll always be the day I choose to end two lives, the day that nearly ended my life too.